May 16, 2020
I didn't want to count days, or weeks, or months, or years
that we've past through
it just, has been not easy for us.
to say the least
We constantly struggle with our issues and insecurities.
One of the hardest thing might be the urge to constantly blame myself for every failures. All the insecurities I have in the past were also brought upfront, overwhelmed my thoughts.
The frustrations.. built up and turned into explosions
I had one earlier today
crying my heart out and screaming out my frustration.
He hugged me
speak to my ear
telling me to be patient
just a little bit patient
remind me
just to be present
and count our on-hand blessings
stay faithful
but also be grateful
He told me today he asked me to marry him not just to have offsprings
He said he's okay not to have one
But so long as we still can
He asked me to keep faithful
and trying
and waiting
for the right time
in His Time.
Not our time.
