Reflection and Resolution

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2011 is just around the corner.. what a surprise. does time fly that fast? sometimes I feel like losing the track of time because time itself goes by faster than me myself runnin in this life. almost 19 years me living this world, 2010 is the quickest year so far. 2009 feels like yesterday just yet. and everything that had happened in 2010 is rolled and played in my mind just like a movie. so quick, yet so much happened.

I still remembered my new year wish for 2010. as you can see, twas my tweet last year, an innocent me wishing something special happens in 2010.. and well. 2010 was thankfully full of miracles. especially college, health, family, friends, and... love. despite getting another failed relationship and heartbroken(s) this year, I still got some lessons to be learnt.


earlier this year was full of struggling. my dad got sick, I was so weak and easy to get sick too, the struggles to get accepted in my dream institute, friendship drama, love drama, farewell to high school. whoa what a year. then just like miracle, thankfully in the mid year all of that struggling was finally paid off. my dad got his health back, I got accepted in the institute and so on. then, having a new life in Bandung, experience living outside home and being distant from parents. how to deal with changes and new environments. knowing the real definition of adaptation........ also lately I've met some new(cool and uncool) people. most of them hasn't taken any big part of my life so far, but some done just totally. and yeah, now I thankfully so enjoy my life. the point is, 2010 was full of hellos and also goodbyes. that's how it was for me.

moving on, now what is up with 2011?
my 2011 resolution is maybe no making any resolution. the whole concept of making a to-do list for a year is just not working on me, haha seriously. but I could make a wish list for 2011. a very long wish list which starts with education.

• passing TPB without failing any subjects
• majoring Industrial Engineering 2010
• health health health no more hospitals medicines and emergency rooms
• brother getting into Science class, sister finishing her studies well
• d..riving...license (which has been on my list for two years)
• a beach getaway
• more live music concerts (don't mention Maroon 5)
• last 10's birthday dinner with close people (please? before turning 20's?)
• a bicycle! to make 2011-me more healthy........and skinny
• and perhaps...... a mature, stable, long term, love relationship

if I write it down all maybe it will take lifetime just to finish the list. 

well that's it. 

so long 2010, welcome 2011. 

wishing all the better things in 2011. happy eleven!

If I Fell

If I fell in love with you

would you promise to be true?

and help me understand

cos I've been in love before

and I've found that love was more than just holding hands

if I give my heart to you

I must be sure from the very start

that you would love me more than her

if I trust in you oh please don't run and hide

if I love you too

oh please don't hurt my pride like her

cos I couldn't stand the pain

and I would be sad if our new love was in vain

so I hope you see

that I would love to love you...

(originally sung by The Beatles, in this video performed by Evan Rachel Wood)

Men Are So Hard to be Trusted

it's like they have the ability of faking the whole relationship, making the women falling in love with them, and leaving just like that. you know what's the problem here? their dignity and pride always comes first, right before their hearts.

Dear Santa

busy there? hm okay.. I shud've even asked. it's Christmas weeks, you're probably getting turned upside down by the uncountable letters sent to you every single day from people all over the world. it's just... it's been my tradition to write my christmas list every year to you, and now I've already turned 18 I still can't help to make another list. is this what other people usually call juvenile or childish? or maybe it's just my way to figure out things about what I want and what I need? oh well who cares anyway. I'll still keep on writing and finish this list for you.

...and yeah. it took so long time to get here from the first paragraph. so many things happened this year... whether it's a good thing or bad. it's still fresh on my mind how I kept bugging you last christmas with the college thingy wishes. how I wished to get accepted in my dream institute of technology, and graduate from senior high with, not best, not great, but just fine score, and that was pretty enough for me. and yeah everything went well after that. but for this Christmas, to be honest I've been longing to so many things. education, health, family, friends, and even love. but then it came up to my mind, that those so many wishes have a same outline. by sorting out things on its priority, they all basically have the same purpose.

bottomline, all I want for Christmas is.....happiness.
my parents, sister, brother, and friends to be simply happy. and if you ask me "is that it?', I'll answer it with "that's everything."

sincerely,
me.

Giddy-yap giddy-yap giddy-yap

IT'S XMAS WEEKS!

how I love Christmas and everything about Christmas.
songs, movies, decoration, and especially the atmosphere.
so let's decorate our house, put the xmas tree, and set our song playlists with Christmas songs. (recommending you the Glee Christmas Album!)


deck the rooftop, IT'S CHRISTMAAAS!