God's really really been good to me.
no, no. I'm not those people who seems really perfect with excess wealth, very good looking, high socialist, and even a genuine genius brain. but obviously without those things I'm now on feeling quite terrifically good and enjoyable with my own life. and mostly, superb grateful.
wonder why?
well, as the other senior year students in the world, we're supposed to prepare for the test to continue studying in college. the only disadvantage is here, my school, we're all forced to prepare everything quickly and instantly. in less than a year. oh even I could say less than 6 months. yep. like total. from 3 years in high school, our total learning time at school is just a half. so, for those students who wants to get into best public university we have to struggle very hard to chase our lateness during freshmen year and sophomore. and yeah. such a hard work. I struggled every single day for 6 months.
an Indonesian proverb, 'tiada gading yang tak retak' ---pretty close means 'no ivory that is not crack'---- explains my condition. I'm sick. I got an illness which sounds not really dangerous but did really ruin my struggling days. that's it. the big point. the bottom line. my big weakness. my sickness.
I kept making absences at school and often in my course, Inten. I missed so many classes and also important lesson. I couldn't stay at Inten to study until late like my friends did to pursue the lesson. I often fell sick when I was in class. eventually, I failed try outs. feeling like a total dumbass with a big mouth kept promising my mom ITB or UI. I despair seeing my other friends understood about the lesson and making good try out score......................................... I fell down.
however, long story short, I finally stood up. keeping my head held high. it was like I felt I want nobody feel dissapointed. and yeah, my advise, don't you hesitate the power of a prayer. it truly works. now, here I am! feeling super duper thankful for what God has given to me. it's unpredictably paid off. my struggling, misery, suffer.
you have no idea how it does really feel.. surprisingly amazed. grateful.
