the thing is,
i dont even know
how to handle guilt
that kills
explicably deep
for closest people around
like
to cause so much trouble
to fail to meet their expectations
to be a disappointment
or like
to be unable
to give something back
or to be useless
and burdensome
a constant pain
so i do the only one thing i know
push people away
so i wont burden them
or anyone
unless at all
that's only logical
right
