the word failure, has been glued to me, since nowadays life becomes pretty much a disaster. I failed at almost everything, nothing that I've done is good enough. sadly it's kinda too late to be fixed. I failed even in relationship, isn't it bad enough.. no, obviously life still wants to kid me more.
been thinking much about this recently, lots happened in my mind, I couldn't catch every thought, and it came out empty. like a lightning in the middle of a clear day, I got slapped by my own failure and changes. it ain't easy to accept, all I can give is denial. this is not me. this is not me. this, is, not, me.
Back then, I was always content with dreams and passion, reaching for the goal one by one. doing particularly all the things I love, living in the moment. and now, at the age where I always thought I was gonna be better, all I got is failure, a come-down. I'm at nowhere.
now, what to do, where to go, how to start,
starting over is no joke but it's not even easy.
been thinking much about this recently, lots happened in my mind, I couldn't catch every thought, and it came out empty. like a lightning in the middle of a clear day, I got slapped by my own failure and changes. it ain't easy to accept, all I can give is denial. this is not me. this is not me. this, is, not, me.
Back then, I was always content with dreams and passion, reaching for the goal one by one. doing particularly all the things I love, living in the moment. and now, at the age where I always thought I was gonna be better, all I got is failure, a come-down. I'm at nowhere.
now, what to do, where to go, how to start,
starting over is no joke but it's not even easy.
