Nothing Will Stop You From Trying

just look around my drafts and found this oracle. surprisingly interestingly true at some points. heck, I forget from where I got this prognosis. but this is just sanely true:

Your view on yourself: You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties. 

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: you are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true. 

Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. 

The seriousness of your love: Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates. 

Your views on education: You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job. 

The right job for you: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. 

How do you view success: You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.  

What are you most afraid of: You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self: You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

Fate

People say that to fixed and certain chapter life is already set. for what happens as the result is always same whether we do something that way, or another way. decisions were already made. that's why for certain, if something has become your destiny since the very beginning, no matter what could've possibly happened, your destiny will still occur at the right exact time.

no matter what.

Morning-Unnecessary-Talk

my desktop clock shows that it's 8.30 in the morning. it's Thursday anyway. I used to be at college at this time.. but since my physics practicum has all done for this semester, I get morning free time every Thursday. but hell yeah, still got the Programing Introduction practicum at 11. how lame. college life mess me up. to be exact, college life mess my sleeping schedule and eat habit up. I slept at 1 am and woke up at 5 almost everyday these months.  seems to me that 6 hours of sleeping has become a luxury and precious stuff for students nowadays. but it's okay. complain and give up? am just way over them since this college has been my dream like ever....... well maybe I just need lil courage and support honestly. haha who doesn't anyway? I am so gonna be just fine, pals.

busy with college stuff, makes me missing my friends especially high school friends even more. funny though, every time I get the chance just even to chat with them, they always come up with the same exact question........ my love life. not that extrovert, I couldn't really say or just express what I truly feel inside. that's why my friends are a bit curious how this silly introvert girl's life goes so far.
and okay, the answer is.. perhaps plain.. flat.. you name it, whatever. I get some crushes, lose some crushes, and keep 'come and go' like that. long story short.. zero boyfriend potential. haha seriously. they say I couldn't fall for man that easily, but once I really fall for a man, well, you really got my eyes on you, boy. and that's the big shortfall of mine. shoot.

move on from love life, am having physic final test this Friday --which is tomorrow-- and feel totally helpless and insecure about the test... but the good news is that.... Christmas is coming to town. wohooo can't wait for euphoria. just so you know.. Christmas is my 2nd favorite day of the year after my birthday --again, who doesn't?-- sooo, maybe  that's all. it's so uncommon thing for me to write such a long post this early. gotta go to programing practicum then.

guten morgen.

Just So You Know..

Life in Points

• having this ugly first midterm test in college, which has an unique system by being scheduled on every Friday per lesson
• it is literally ugly even I feel like getting slapped every Friday when reading the question papers
• hectic hectic college days
• crazy over How I Met Your Mother
• becoming more movie buff and can't stand watching those drop dead great old movies
• gaining weights and so happy I have my cheeks back
• new hair cut; the shorter the sexier
• frigging excited about the Christmas Plan
• Lusting over a new pocket camera; or better said polaroid
• busting on these new Paulo Coelho books, woohoo!
• happily and enjoyably still mingling among new cool friends around
• and...... just like that, enjoying life much more than before

or long story short: life in a point? happy:) thank God.

Paradise Island

September 2010, Bali.

I'm coming HOLI...wait for it...DAY!

well, holiday is coming 2 weeks damn straight, sweet baby. I couldn't help but feeling the big excitement leaving these so many papers, assignments, and tests. man, holiday. that word becomes such a precious and luxury thing for student like us.
p.s.: doesn't having a getaway to the paradise island for 5 days sounds fun? BALI!

Paris Van Java on Saturday

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I'll ask the clouds

to bring the rain for you today

so you can cry

-Ne Yo

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Weekend spent in very enjoyable way with some friends from Bridging Program ITB 2010. they're kind of delightful & funny people, even I can't stop laughing at a time. That evening was cloudy and heavenly drizzling. Paris Van Java also was not so crowded so that we could make a special space in H.E.M.A. Dutch Resto and keep laughing. it was fine. everything seemed so fine. how I wish I could be at least fine too, but no, ironically I'm not.

Let's Get Over and Back To Bussiness

hello Mr. Right. come here find me.

Simply Alive

in this mere world, nothing is permanent but changes. so by that simple statement, I hereby have a wish about self-change. cliche stuff. being more mature and less complaining things. more thankful. get a full control of self emotion. start seeing things from the positive perspectives. and so many tiny little cliche things else. ain't easy, but worth trying. these thoughts just peep out some days ago. the fairytale of childhood was over, and here I am facing the next phase of life in the 18th year of breathing this air. bottomline, I just wanna feel more ecstatic and enjoy my own life. is that too much to ask?

you know, if you want life to love you, love your life first. simply alive.

and that's everything.

Dear The Best Best Father In The Universe

sincerely, the worst daughter you've ever imagined.

After Years Been Trying To Be Someone I'm Not

Farewell v2.0

I hate goodbyes and never ever good at it.
oh well, who doesn't?

alone at bedroom, I packed my stuff accompanied by ipod. humming and still felt nothing but thrilled about moving in to Bandung. I just realized that there were so many things in my bedroom. felt like my stuffs suddenly multiplied it self as I sorted and packed it one by one. maybe emptying my bedroom would take a lifetime.

my little discovery journey at my own bedroom ended up finding memorable stuff since I was in elementary school. how funny it was, reading on my own doodles and felt weird with my own self in the past. I just found out that I often fell in love, had broken heart, made friend, had a fight with best friends, and other typical teenager dramas. I gave in, I gave up, I moved on, I forgot, back to I gave in again. pretty much circle of love life. then, with no idea why I decided to do that, I put all the memorable doodles and papers in one box, started to tear it apart one by one, and dumped it just like that. yeah, after all these years I saved those things in the corner, I dumped it all. just. like. that.
and what did I feel? relief.

until suddenly the shuffle ipod played 'Leaving on a Jet plane', I was frozen and frostbitten sitting in the middle of the bedroom. the feeling of leaving people and things came up and filled up my mind. not try to exaggerate things, but it was really hard for me to bare the joyless and tears to came up again. things would never be the same again. not in junior high, or high school anymore. Leaving me with million memories, bad ones and good ones, lovable ones and memorable ones, everything was blended and it turned me into a crying baby.

friends, family, lovable people, even people who hates me,
See you again in future. have a great life up there. I am definitely gonna miss everything, everyone, every seconds.

this is not a farewell, so please
say See You instead of a good bye

Faculty of Industrial Technology 2010

God is good all the time. that's what I'm talking about, dudes! :D

Greetings From Bandung

I'm fine! thank you! (in case you're wondering news from me :p)

hi. I finally got a chance to write here, aka finally get the good internet connection. Living in Bandung doesn't give you a proper internet connection unless you use wifi slash internet cable and definitely NOT a portable modem.
just so you know, for a month later I'm still living in a super nice and sweet dormitory which just has some minus things such as, no TV, no internet connection, and no operator signal (even for blackberry) yeaaah I'm hungry of information and news!! gimme some!!
as soon as arriving home, first thing that came up in my mind is to open my laptop and turn on the internet. just like exactly I am doing now.

Bridging program was totally going fine.
first thing I learn here as a new-outside-town-comer-as-a-student-college is that
adaptation takes time, and after a real soon everything is just gonna turn out to be as normal as before.

at first, new environment, different weather, new life schedule, different habit, new college, different people, new lesson, different teacher, they all just push me down and kill me slowly...but sure. I so damn miss my family, friend, and home. and, oftenly cried after getting a call from my mom. (gee, how embarrassing) all I wanted to do was going back to home and finish this stuff as soon as possibly I could.

Now? haha I don't even want to come back home if I shouldn't do the laundry. my new friends rocks, my campus is cool, and Bandung rules! believe me, I've been in love with this town since ever. the street, the weather, the food, the public places, even the street musicians. I don't mind taking public transportation to anywhere here, and especially, I don't mind taking a walk to anywhere. the weather is just always lovely. how about taking a walk on the street in the mid-day in Jakarta? never mind.

unfortunately my lecture schedule is pretty crowded. I get class every Monday till Friday from 8am until 5pm. and the lesson I've to catch up is also pretty much. 8 modules in every lesson. just for a month. it ain't easy anymore. the lesson, quiz, tests, presentations, and assignments. my college requires a very hard work from the students. and, it is really, really, really, hard.
but I wont complain anymore, this is the risk I've taken since the day I decided that I want to go to this college. I'll just go keep fighting everything I have to face and keep going on. wont give up on it. however hard the struggling and the risk, I hope I can do my best to chase that either Information of Technology or Industrial Engineering.

I'll live my dream.