Drama

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we'll never know what's wrong and right again when meet the words friends, family, and love. we may think we do the right things but then everything turns out to be a total mess. just like what I did lately.

Me is kinda a person who avoid and not a big fan of conflict. I preferably choose my beloved people's happiness instead of mine. in teenage-drama-queen-words, I don't mind being the hurt one. and........ that's the problem. bottom line. I'm so naive. like totally. I think I know I'll make things better but the fact is I never really know the consequence I'll really get when choosing the wrong choice.

now everything is such a total mess, all I can do is nothing. I'm in the spectator seats. gazing a drama that I'll never understand why it should be like that way. then I arrived at one point that bring me a conclusion, as I said in 1st sentence, meeting the word friend, family, and love could blind you. we'll never know what's wrong and right anymore. but unfortunately, one choice is just gonna bring us to another choice. and more choices. it happens to bring me so many question mark.

Dear God, am I on the right path?

High School Rules

ever wish high school would be as pleased and fun as 'High school Musical'? or even as full of drama as 'Gossip Girl'? keep on dreaming. not even close.

I once ever read in a writer's twitter page about high school. you know him, I'm sure. he wrote that twitter nowadays becoming more highschool. wondering what he meant about 'highschool'?
backstabbing. bullying. and grouping. couldn't agree more.

• backstabbing your friend with your other friend, while you yourself is being back-stabbed too. wearing a mask and still pretend to act kindly to your backstabbing friend.
• bullying the innocent juniors because of their existence, in fact you're just jealous and you were bullied too when you were still a junior.
• grouping with some friends, and think that your group is the coolest thing ever happened while the other group think exactly the same thing.

undeniable.
I know even you, the most talented and charming student in the school, ever done such a thing like that. in this case, I can't deny 'me' is included. passively and actively.

on the other hand, we can't fully and directly just blame on the people who do those stuff. because like a mirror, you see yourself when you get angry at those people. thus, I keep thinking that this fact is so dramatically part of our life life. this school thingy is a path we have to pass to get the maturity.

besides, there's a lot of things that so-called-high-school in a good way. hanging out after school time, dating hot guys/girls that you've been dreaming of but then.., breaking-ups, meeting new boys/girls, school's event, even party with your friends? so many more. but I know the most important thing you should remember is, the Laugh-out-louds. the friends.
it makes the phrase 'high school never ends' definitely true.

learning from this part of life, that high school is the transition time which puts you into the maturity from the childishness. when we were child, world is so beautiful and everyone is our friend. now from high school we can take the conclusion that life ain't a fairytale and most of people are enemies instead of friends. who knows? someday when we're already grown up, we'll laugh the stupid things we've done. and we'll become mature.

now what? I can't stop letting my self to write this. I apologize that I ever back-stabbed you, friends. or even wearing a mask in front of you. this apology is for the past, present, and maybe the future. people can't ever guarantee things rite? but I think I never bullied my junior. you can keep my words for this. kind of a nice senior? count me in. and about the grouping things? well it's a social issue. whole school is overall a group indeed. can we say we're a very big group here?

and, my highschool era is just 4 months left. let's see what could happen in 4 months.
so, stay highschool guys.
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Communicative

so, this is how the communication working in this age
when you feel so bad to someone and you cant spill it out just write it down on the super cyber world. then, voila. that 'someone' might read it without question. without effect you real life. and both of your life still go on well.
very good. I'll follow this lifestyle. watch me

what a coincidence!

just did blogwalking, and found an interesting coincidence from Olip's blog. kayaknya olip OL nya pas gue sakit kemarin, jadi pm gue gitu deh haha. anyway it's a print-screen of olip's windows messenger in case you come from another planet and dying to know what this picture means ;p

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