Leaving

Adhitia Sofyan - Forget Jakarta
I’m waiting in line to get to where you are//Hope floats up high along the way//I forget Jakarta//All the friendly faces in disguise//This time, I’m closing down this fairytale//And I put all my heart to get to where you are//Maybe it’s time to move away//I forget Jakarta//And all the empty promises will fall//This time, I’m gone to where this journey ends//But if you stay, I will stay//Even though the town’s not what it used to be//And pieces of your life you try to recognize//All went down
I travel the world to get to where you are//Strangers i met along the way//You forget Jakarta//Leaving all the lunacy behind//This time give me back my sanity//Yeah I’m still on my way to get to where you are//Try to let go the things I knew//We’ll forget Jakarta//Promise that we’ll never look behind//Tonight, we’re gone to where this journey ends//And all the pictures that you try to loose//Will follow you behind like ghosts do//And all the lies you try to keep//Have fall behind to catch you even more

at one point, it feels such a relief having a chance to get away from this center of life here. things seem to tire me too much these days. but still, on the other hand, I can't bear more of this super miserably joyless feeling. I'm sad.

Amazed

High School Rules

ever wish high school would be as pleased and fun as 'High school Musical'? or even as full of drama as 'Gossip Girl'? keep on dreaming. not even close.

I once ever read in a writer's twitter page about high school. you know him, I'm sure. he wrote that twitter nowadays becoming more highschool. wondering what he meant about 'highschool'?
backstabbing. bullying. and grouping. couldn't agree more.

• backstabbing your friend with your other friend, while you yourself is being back-stabbed too. wearing a mask and still pretend to act kindly to your backstabbing friend.
• bullying the innocent juniors because of their existence, in fact you're just jealous and you were bullied too when you were still a junior.
• grouping with some friends, and think that your group is the coolest thing ever happened while the other group think exactly the same thing.

undeniable.
I know even you, the most talented and charming student in the school, ever done such a thing like that. in this case, I can't deny 'me' is included. passively and actively.

on the other hand, we can't fully and directly just blame on the people who do those stuff. because like a mirror, you see yourself when you get angry at those people. thus, I keep thinking that this fact is so dramatically part of our life life. this school thingy is a path we have to pass to get the maturity.

besides, there's a lot of things that so-called-high-school in a good way. hanging out after school time, dating hot guys/girls that you've been dreaming of but then.., breaking-ups, meeting new boys/girls, school's event, even party with your friends? so many more. but I know the most important thing you should remember is, the Laugh-out-louds. the friends.
it makes the phrase 'high school never ends' definitely true.

learning from this part of life, that high school is the transition time which puts you into the maturity from the childishness. when we were child, world is so beautiful and everyone is our friend. now from high school we can take the conclusion that life ain't a fairytale and most of people are enemies instead of friends. who knows? someday when we're already grown up, we'll laugh the stupid things we've done. and we'll become mature.

now what? I can't stop letting my self to write this. I apologize that I ever back-stabbed you, friends. or even wearing a mask in front of you. this apology is for the past, present, and maybe the future. people can't ever guarantee things rite? but I think I never bullied my junior. you can keep my words for this. kind of a nice senior? count me in. and about the grouping things? well it's a social issue. whole school is overall a group indeed. can we say we're a very big group here?

and, my highschool era is just 4 months left. let's see what could happen in 4 months.
so, stay highschool guys.
X

Goals and Try Out

looks like I didn't keep my words then another lack of updates here. 'busy' is always be my first reason before 'lazy' hehehe :)

oh ya hari minggu kemarin gue try out inten pertama lho. waw. gue merasa tertampar habis-habisan (sedikit lebay). kemana saja saya selama 2 bulan pertama sekolah ini? dulu saja awal masuk pernah berjanji ke diri sendiri kalo akan berusaha. tapi, apakah saya berusaha sekeras yang saya janjikan? jawabannya, ya tentu. eh tapi.... kurang sih sebenernya. hmmmmm, oke. tidak sama sekali malah.

hasilnya? peringkat yang tidak baik untuk diumbarkan disini.

kecewa? tentu.
tapi sehabis mengetahui hasil try out pertama itu, saya langsung mendapat konseling dari inten. dan kalimat pertama yang gue tangkep, 'apa itu berarti kalian masuk ui kalo peringkat try outnya tinggi?'
oke gue kembali tersenyum.

in baru awal, semua belum berakhir. lebih baik jatuh di awal daripada jatuh di akhir. karena itu perjuangan masih panjang. masih ada waktu untuk mengejar. tidak perlu stres, tapi jangan terlalu santai. ini baru awal, masih ada waktu.

Monday Blues

who said Monday is good? it's definitely not, and I totally hate Monday, as always.

oke mungkin ada pengaruhnya juga kemarin postingan terakhir gue kan jam 1, akhirnya tadi pagi gue bangun jam 6 kurang 15. dimana seharusnya gue berangkat sekolah jam 6 kurang 30. crap. masih agak percaya gak percaya liat jam di hp udah 5.46. pas nyawa udah kekumpul baru deh kan tuh panik lari-lari nyari anduk langsung mandi. (yes, I still take a bath even I wake up late. that's my ethic code as a student)

abis mandi gue langsung turun (lari) ke bawah. dan lemes langsung ngeliat meja makan bersih kinclong tanpa makanan. double crap. nyokap-bokap-adek gue semuanya juga bangun telat ternyata dan nyokap ga sempet masak apa-apa. no offense friend, I'm not fasting in case you're too curious to know. dan boleh gue ulang nama penyakit gue akhir2 ini? yep. radang lambung. dimana seharusnya gue ga boleh makan telat, apalagi gak sarapan. dan oh ya. hari ini puasa dimana gakan ada orang jualan makanan pagi-pagi gitu. dan kantin sekolah juga dipastikan tutup semua. triple crap. untung mama pinter, beli roti langsung 2 gue embat semua masukin ke tas.

udah jam 6 lewat ternyata, udah gak mungkin lagi nebeng mobil papa dengan kemacetan kalimalang ya amit amit kampay hoek banget itu ya. jalan deh keliling komplek nyari tukang ojek. dan ya ampuuun, gak ada tukang ojek! paniklah si eneng. mau gimana coba masa iya gue lari ke sekolah. namun tiba-tiba gue mendengar suara motor dari belakang, dan tampaklah tukang ojek nganggur yang bercahaya menyelamatkan hidup gue sambil berkata, 'ojek neng?'

udah kan setelah morning madness itu gue pun sampai di sekolah dengan sehat. ketemu rein, langsung gue bombardir dengan cerita gue. eh komen dia cuma gini,
'kalo gue jadi lo ya un mending gue ga sekolah deh.'
ya ampun, ide itu sama sekali tak terlintas di benakku. dan ya, tadi sekolah ternyata cuma nyampah doang gue. ga ngapa2in gila.

tapi ada yang gue suka dari sekolah gue nih, selama bulan puasa 1 jam pelajaran jadi 30 menit dan pulang sekolah jam 12.05! whoaaaa I love you SMAN 81 Jakarta tercinta!

oke kembali ke 'i hate monday' topic
abis pulang gue kan ke pijjahat ya sama temen2 yang emang ga puasa juga (maaf2 yaa huahua), abis ketawa ketiwi dan cerita ceriti kita pulang deh.nyampe rumah gue lgsg nonton dan leha-leha sambil main piano dikit-dikit kan ya. terus baru inget mau nyari nada dan chord lagu baru di hp gue. dan ya ampun gatau crap ke berapa kali. pas gue cari si hp putih kecilku itu gak ada. tapi bb gue masih ada (lega). udah siap2 kan tuh gue ngiklasin si mungil nokia, tiba2 erdian nelpon ke bb. ternyata hp gue ketinggalan di mobil ditoooo. ya ampuuuuuuuuun crap crap crap crap!

cant I just have a normal Monday?
well hope we'll get better tuesday tomorrow, we'll see.

hugssss,

V

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Dagi Dig Dug Duwar

oke bukannya ngerjain tugas gue malah posting blog dan bala-bala di dunia maya tadi. bagus. finally I ended up with doing homework too hurry dan asal-asalan. pas udah selese, wih lega. pas jam 12 malem. abis itu tinggal print kan ya. eh emang dasar bebek bau giginya tonggos. printer gue tiba-tiba gak bisa dipake aaaaaaaaaargh tidaaaaak. gila panik belalang kupu kupu banget gue malem-malem gini nyari tempat print dimane beraaayyy. mana udah capek2 ngetik panjang lebar.dag dig dug kan jadinya woot woot. namun tiba-tiba hati gue berkata, tenang dulu tenang. coba cari jalan keluarnya. dan dengan cerdas nan eloknya gue sedikit mengutak ngatik printer serta komputer dan, bala! jadi deh print-an tugas gue uhukukuku. i'm so proud hik hik (terharu)

okelah sekarang udah malem, gotta hit the bed pals. besok sekolah jam setengah 7 cuy kurang pagi apalagi coba itu mah ('hah masih jaman sekolah? makanya kuliaaaah' kata mereka. eits, 'sabar yak setaun lagi kok')
KISSES!

Freaky Friday

I skipped school again today. ya makanya bisa megang internet lagi setelah sekian lama. but I'm not membolos kok, my mom pushed me to. she said if I have no important lesson, just take a day off and rest all day in home. so I did it.

speaking of school, my senior year so far is much better than sophomore or freshmen year. it feels like you can go anywhere without any worry about the scarry senior and so on. people are also nicer after knowing each other for last 2 years. it's imperfectly perfect. why imperfect? yeah because as always, social and science classes are acting like a rival each other in the senior year. as always. how sad.

how about me?
me will hopefully go to Bandung next year. taking a famous public institute there, faculty of engineering or else. my parents's decision exactly. I personally have no decision. truly I have no idea where I want really go. I sooo much envy seeing my friends that have found their lifetime goal. how the passion works on them is really tempting. i want to have passion too. like them. and I need help. immediately.

today was fine. Thank God it's Friday.

School Starts tomorrow

Rise and shine people,
this year is not gonna be easy as our last term
but as long as we keep doing together and supportive
I know we can do it and pass it

new spirit, new term, and have a great senior year!


(sigh)

Bye holiday, I'll be missing you A LOT

it's saturday however
and I'm gonna start the new term as a senior student on Monday
this monday
2 days away
monday
moaanday


gosh

tell me that I'm dreaming now, please

Bad and Good

hari ini ambil rapot.

dan gue naik kelaaaas!
plok plok wah hebat ya
udah kelas 3 aja
taun depan kuliah ya
hem abis dong masa SMA nya
terus gimana?
seneng ga di SMA? hem? hem?

nilai lumayan lho. agak merasa tidak pantas juga mendapatkan nilai segitu
terus tadi si daddy sempet-sempetnya lagi ngomong gini ke wali kelas gue, 'itu murid-muridnya tolong di rolling lagi ya buat kelas taun ajaran depan'
waaaaaaaaaaaaw papa jagoan hahaha
terus gue liat lembaran-lembaran rapot kan ya
bokap nanya, emg udah resmi naik kelas 3 nih?
terus gue jawab, ini ada tulisannya
'dinyatakan naik ke kelas XII blablabla'
pas lagi liat tulisan itu, gue liat tulisan di atasnya:

absensi
sakit 9 hari
ijin -
alpa -

oke syok ya saudara-saudara karena angka 9 itu tidaklah kecil
perasaan sakit juga cuma 5-6 hari
ini kenapa sembilan
9 lhoooo teman teman

1 minggu lebih 2 hari
langsung deh buru2 gue tutup itu lembaran2 rapot dan disimpen di tas
ga tau deh si ayah udah sadar apa belum

dan babe saya pun balik lagi ke kantor setelah ambil rapot di sekolah
gue pun di sekolah sampai sore

hari ini ada closing Cakrawala
lumayan seru lah ya walau agak2 sepay juga ha-ha
pulangnya dianterin kan ke rumah
eh si papa pulang-pulang bawain jam tangan
katanya buat hadiah naik kelas, terus udah kelas 3 jd mesti lebih disiplin waktu lagi
haha apa sih pap, sip deh makasi ya hadiahnya

heeeeeem I thought I've got lil bit too much chit-chat here
today's somehow got bad and good side
overall I still must feel greatful for everything happened, right?

so see ya buddy :)